that feels good.

Wednesday, February 21, 2007

i got so excited because i got comments! it made me cry and everything, but in the good way. it's exciting to me that my feelings aren't scary to certain people. i know i am really lucky because i have people in my life that can read this and not get uncomfortable and they like it even!
the truth is, even though i'm lucky that a few people can look, i don't think many people can. i think it's weird to most people that i talk about my feelings. i think most people don't know what to say if you talk about feelings, especially if they are bad feelings. i'm not having those bad feelings now, but i was having a lot of them for the past few weeks and it gets scary. i get scared because number 1, i feel like i shouldn't be so sad, number 2, i don't want to make other people sad or tired of me and number 3, sometimes i feel like i'm always being sad. whenever the sad is back i just don't know what to do or who to talk to and that gets scary. i pray that one day i can just be normal and stop having sad times so often, that would be the BEST.