Lately i feel like i can't stop eating. i realized i wasn't feeling so good because i have been eating too much and started being real careful about it. at first, it was easy to be careful and it felt good because i had so many fruits and veggies, but then it got hard. now it's like i think about food all the time and it's like some kind of trap for me. it's like i'm crazy out of control when i eat and even though i don't feel hungry anymore, eating still feels so good. then i feel real bad about myself afterward and wonder why i couldn't stop. i think about the time i was eating better a couple weeks ago and how happy that made me. then i get scared that i can't stop and i will keep getting fat and feel badly about myself. i won't be able to run around and feel healthy.
it makes me feel yucky...i do it anyway. it doesn't make any sense to me. my mommy has some real bad habits and i'm afraid i caught them. she doesn't know how to take care of herself and i don't want to do that. it's all so hard and confusing.
