help me find the bright side.

i'm getting real tired of how nervous i feel all the time. i can't really figure out what's going on with me, but i don't feel real good. i know i'm upset because my friend doesn't really talk to me very much anymore now that she has a boyfriend. it makes me feel really sad and lonely because we used to spend a lot of time together and talk all the time. now i feel like i'm not really important. i guess it bothers me double duty because she was just having a lot of problems and i was a really good friend for her. it was some real bad stuff and i did a lot to help her and her family. it was a bad time for everyone, but we got through it. the thing is, now that it's over, it's like i don't matter anymore and that makes my feelings hurt. i also start thinking i did something wrong or maybe i'm annoying to be around because it seems like this happens a lot to me and my friends. it's like i can only be close to someone for a short period of time and then they go away. why do ya think that happens? it makes me wanna yell and scream at someone, but i don't think that would help. it also doesn't help to be sad about it, but i do that part.
sorry i have a lot of bad blogs. i guess i've been having a lot of bad feelings lately. i hope my friends don't get tired of it and stop reading...