lucky me!

so, in all of my nervousness i couldn't get my brain together to study which made things even worse. i got scared because everything was getting bigger and bigger in my head and my heart was beating so fast! i had lots of books in front of me, but i couldn't read any of them and i was really close to thinking i might explode! i talked to barb for a little and she was really busy. the nervousness didn't go away an it started to scare me a lot. i called nai and told her what was going on and she worked really hard to help me. she told me stories that made me very happy and then she made me do silly stuff to make my mind think of better things. we talked for a little while and she was reminding me about all sorts of good things about me and gave me some ideas for my studies. it made me feel so good that she did all of that for me.

after that another good friend called and was offering to help me too. how many people in the world have such great friends?? i felt really warm and loved inside and also safer.

you know what happened after that? i started thinking really clear again and my school stuff wasn't so hard. it all started making sense again and then i started liking reading it again. how lucky am i? waaaaaaaaaaaaaaay super duper lucky. that's for sure.