all tied up.

see that picture? that's exactly what my belly feels like and what it's been feeling like for many days. did i swallow a rope? that would be weird if i did, but i can't figure out another reason that there's a big knot in my tummy. i keep trying different things like my exercises, and talking to my friends, having a lot of concentrating in school and listening to songs i like. what's weird is that one of my favorite things hasn't been very good lately, and that's food. it's like there's no space for food because the knot is taking up all the room. i know i feel worried about school because i wanna do real good. i'm also worried because maybe this new boy doesn't really like me. i haven't talked to him in many days and i'm going back to thinking bad things again. i'm trying real hard not to and to just remember if he doesn't like me it's okay. but i get upset when i don't even get a chance to know someone new and then POOF they disappear. i also really miss my good friend who is better, but still maybe not all the way and i get scared. my other really good friend has some bad things happening in her life, and my bestest friend and i still haven't talked for a month!! i'll keep my fingers crossed that these things get better fast.