back but scared.

well, it's been a looooooong time since i've written and i don't know why. lots of stuff has happened. some of it is super great and some of it is really hard and i think it's time to write again. the main thing i'm spending time thinking about is really hard and it's about my aunt. she is going to have surgery today and it's really pretty scary. what scares me worse is that she is real mad about it...especially because she was sick before and had to have surgery. i would probably be real mad too if i went through all of that and had to do it again. i wish i could help her feel better. i wish she could feel better about herself and her life and maybe she wouldn't be so mad and maybe she would get better. it's hard when you don't know what to do to help someone but you care alot and wanna help them. since i can't really be with her cause we live far away and she is kinda just mad right now, i've been praying a lot for her. i've been asking G-d to help her to be strong and to help her family to be strong and keep remembering all the good things that G-d gives us. i also asked some of my friends who know her to pray for her and her family as well. i don't think my aunt wants anyone to know, but it's important for alot of people to be paying attention to prayers for her. it's the only way i really know how to help so that's what i'm doing.